I'll get the good news out of the way. I'm basically deeming tomorrow 'roleplay day'. So, for anyone who has been patiently waiting for me to start answering them, I'm going to extremely active tomorrow. (Which I hope will make up for when I'm hardly active on the 31st and 1st that are coming up *cough*)
So, that's partly-good news out the way.
Now for the 'rant', if you can even call it that. lol More like a little confession type thing. Anyway, let's get this little issue out from under the carpet, and dealt with.
~Unofficial and Official Pairings~
Unofficials are unaffected by this. You can still make them. Etc etc, no issues.
Official pairings are what I would like to address. They have been an issue for me for a long time. I've reached the point where I need to either find a way to make these work for me again, or just say "No official pairings from me EEEVVVEEERRR!". And, I'd like to avoid the second option. LOL
Mostly, all I want to say is not to expect them when aiming for pairings with me any more. This is to avoid the expectations, the promises I may have made in the past, feeling like I'm being pushed or rushed, and other negative factors. All of these are currently contributing to a lot of unnecessary stress, pressure, and anxiety I've had in regards to pairings, which honestly just makes me pull back anyway. So, I am hoping to put a stop to it.
Does this mean there will NEVER be official pairings again? No, like I mentioned above, this is to try to avoid that situation. LOL But, pairings will ONLY be considered to become official after a lot of thought, time, trust, and care. I hope you all understand, and I hope you have a nice day/night.